Other Mornings..

Shrill and loud the alarm rings
Troubles of another day it brings
Though I try to pretend I dont hear
There's no use denying the morn is here
My mother isnt around to nag me anymore
Funny, but thats one thing Iam longing for
I roll over try to catch another wink
Slumberland - I just reach its brink
But then I hear the damn alarm again
All my efforts to sleep go invain
From the alarm takes over the phone
I utter a rather audible groan
No point pursuing that sleep of mine
I guess its time indeed to rise and shine
A million different places to go, a million different things to do
There's shit to endure, but there're the little pleasures too
Some might celebrate, some might start mourning
For me its just what it is - another morning

Mornings...

shrill and loud rings the alarm clock
have to wake up now what the cock
the best way i can welcome the morn
is by surrfing thru some quality porn
until i get a chick i can call mine
then she and me will do a sixty nine
till then here on my bed i lie
no other choice but to DIY

Yeah! got free tickets and ended up , much to my surprise at the Linkin Park concert!! It was pretty good - I mean, I think the peppers were still better.. but this one was damn good nevertheless..

tired now - wrote only half a rhyme.. will put it up when its done.. K messaged me.. she needs a favour from me and I like it not.. 'cause it sounded very much like da old times.. and well that is just bad!!

oh yeah - got conned by Harleen and Vimal into MC ing the damn law formal dinner.. iam soo fucked!

Alright - iam not raging anymore.. the anger has transformed itself into a deep sense of melancholy.. silent sadness.. Officially I declare a day of mourning.. dress in black - da works.. to the demise of dutch football as we knew it..

AMAZING!!! REMARKABLE!!!! and sooo FUCKING TRAGIC....

23 minutes and 2 goals up.. 88 minutes and 3-2 down.. how do you explain that?? The Dutch as always defeated themselves.. Dick Advocaat is really indeed a DICK of enormous stupidity.. Can you imagine - he takes off arguably the best player on the pitch - Robben and brings on Paul Bosvelt - who is only in the squad because of Von Bommel's last minute injury.. I mean, beg your pardon but IAM RAGIN'!!!!! it is 4:40am - gonna play soccer at 9:30am - but i CANNOT sleep now.. how many times do I get to see the dutch flatter only to deceive.. I mean, WHY OH WHY do they torture me(and a few other millions) this way????

What a waste.. what a huge fucking waste..

P.S. >> Pardon the language eh..

Another beheading - this time in Saudi Arabia.. makes one wonder - is this what human life is worth? Does either side value life at all? They take lives for a greater cause -both of them - but how difficult is it to realise that the body count has reached staggering proportions? End justifying the means?? Bah - humbug.. Besides the numbers - check out the brutality.. beheadings on air broadcast to millions, maybe billions.. And the humiliation.. POWs are always abused, but humiliated like the way they were in Iraq - iam not so sure.. I mean, professional soldiers do not abuse prisoners for fun.. abuse and torture arising out of anger or revenge or some imagined necessity is not so bad.. abuse and torture for FUN??? Where are we heading?? If Ghengis Khan and Attila and Hitler were considered evil, how different are the leaders now?? This is just tragic.. Nuclear annihilation is the answer.. let only the cockroaches survive...

hmm.. FWOC is pissing me off a wee bit.. ha ha.. but heck.. so i come up with really silly rhymes....

SELF PLEASURE

Met a girl so fine
Wanted to make her mine
Told her forever I'll be thine
She told me i was 69th on the line

So I walked on for a while
Might have been many a mile
There I saw a chick with style
Her line now was as long as the nile

This time I thought i'd queue
The feeling was distinctly new
The heartaches were more than a few
And then she said sorry but never did like you

Then i felt i couldnt wait long
Settled for the first one that came along
Sure her love was true and so damn strong
But painfully I realised i got it all wrong

Relationships i decided weren't my thing
Snakes that were women had too much sting
Decided I shall be content with many a fling
Heck then every female i met wanted to cling

Celibacy was then the only option
For woman inflicted wounds the best lotion
What an uphill task it was I had no notion
In the end even it wasnt any magic potion

Finally I realised I had a solution
When I went back to masturbation!

I hate goalless draws... we men, we like to SCORE!!

Italy - so highly rated.. so filled with talent.. so unable to score.. i mean.. WHAT THE HELL!!!!! Iam pissed off.. think thats it for my affinity for Italy.. to hell with 'em.. but hey Zidane.. he is da man.. he is an artist.. he plays football like he composes some sort of music.. its melodious and goddamn beautiful.. remind me to write som rhyme about football sometime soon.. and to those who think football is that sport they play with helmets and body armour and quarterbacks.. you sad sods.. soccer is not the right word.. football is!!!

And yeah, well.. though not about football.. here is a rhyme for the night anyway.. was thinking about breakups.. lol.. its incomplete.. but nah, cant be bothered..

if i had to go today would she shed a tear?
would she forgive enough to hold me near?
maybe even tell me once to her i was dear?
that she might not is what i fear
oh will these clouds from my head ever clear?

version 2

if i were to go today a tear would she shed?
or only remember the bad things that i said?
wont she remember the old times instead?
would she know how my heart has bled?
oh will these clouds ever clear from my head?

Been thinking.. am completely out of focus...

Gonna refocus.. Gonna do things right..

may Portugal thrash Greece.. may Portugal win euro2004.. shame if the golden generation ends up without a trophy...

Ah - finally in the mood again and the damn thing is accessible!!

Been a quietish few days - nothing much going on.. Everything seems usual and all - so what do I blog about eh? he he.. but there are ALWAYS stories - if not mine, somebody else's.. Like this guy in the FWOC comm.. well, long story short - he got dumped and is having a torrid time of it.. it really is sad how chicks can reduce a man to a quivering mass of self pity.. absolutely moving.. These beastly women have such a powerful hold on us testosterone pots.. sad but true.. They are thoroughly illogical, inconsistent and absolutely vicious when they aren't on our side.. YET, we love them.. we get dumped by some woman.. cruelly at times.. yet we go grovelling back to them on our knees... some of us never ever get back to our feet.. those of us that do take a horribly painfully long time getting there.. its all quite amazing when you are on the outside looking in.. quite, quite amazing! I didn't understand it then - I don't understand it now.. this power they have over us.. Phew..

Looks like the flooble chatbox on the left has been seeing a lot of activity eh.. funny shit indeed!

Met X for dinner and drinks after and hit it off from where we left off more than 6 months ago.. sometimes, some choices you make come back to haunt you - this is one such choice of mine.. I dont feel all that bad I guess - nevertheless, its a trifle intriguing..

Anyway, busy doing all kinds of shit.. turned 25 and didnt feel like doing anything about it - rotted in my hostel room.. adding on to my quest to be a quieter, gentler person.. he he

Saw M's blog - something about wrong feelings and nipping them in the bud.. hope it isn't what i think it is.. but i think it is.. phew.. sometimes you just look at choices others have to make and feel grateful yours are nowhere near that tough.. but hey, did you ever think.. feelings are meant to be inexplicable.. thats the nature of that beast.. so how do you get a "wrong" feeling? and how do you control that?
Guess in the end it only gets as complicated as you want it to be..

Watched Troy - not a bad movie. Must attribute all the negative comments to too much hype and exaggerated expectations from a star studded cast.. The movie was fine.. not spectacular or excellent.. but it was fine!

The Greeks and Trojans were portrayed as the stories tell us - with their own sense of honour and all - but brutal and cruel nevertheless. Even the Gods in their mythology are a vengeful lot, so no surprise there. Though there were too much humanising of the characters to make them appeal to the audience.. commercial needs ought to be met after all!

Anyway enough about that - but hey, ever wondered why people join armies and die defending their country? I can understand when people kill for money.. I understand people killing for something for themselves.. but killing AND dying for the ountry.. to protect people they dont know.. obeying the orders of leaders they dont see.. how much sense does that make? Look all around you - territory matters a lot.. why dont people just move on, move out and make lives for themselves.. is not that what has happened traditionally? Powerful civilizations have always displaced less powerful ones.. who, if not exterminated, move on and survive elsewhere... But now, all that has changed - terrorism, mass murders, televised decapitations - all in the name of fighting for their countries.. a turn for the worse? or just an inevitable development of what always was? I dont know.. All I know - taking a human life is no small thing.. no easy task.. yet, everyone is capable of it when sufficiently motivated (and we are not talking saving their own here).. It all makes no sense to me.. Give me my corner somewhere.. take away my luxuries.. i survive on my necessities.. take away my necessities.. i survive on bare essentials.. take away that.. well.. I dont know..