Wednesday, September 28, 2005
the days melt into each other.. yesterday was the same as today will be the same as tomorrow.. some hall activity.. a bit of school activity.. some block activity to organize approaching.. some presentation / assigmment coming up.. it all sounds eerily similar after a while and it is hard to distinguish between one from another.. and its all with a nauseating sense of dejavu.. suddenly i am 18 all over again.. the familiar suffocating feeling of responsibility tinged with the fear of academic hell.. the oft repeated efforts at compartmentalizing and attempts at concentrating on one at a time.. i can taste the sour-bitter-sweet taste of very similar memories.. but there is a difference.. it was easier and harder the last time.. the energy levels were different.. the weight of the intervening years presses down this time.. and there is a strange anticipation.. the foreboding of what will come.. then i didn't know.. now i do.. i think i do.. impending fear of doom that somehow gets averted at the last time.. like some familiar Jackie Chan stunt.. seemingly hopeless but always the miraculous escape.. the inevitable triumphs and tribulations that are bound to follow.. the tangled webs that are sure to be weaved.. conflicting egos and disgusting politics.. the anger the joy the peace the laughter the mess the insensibility.. the jumbled up mix of everything that never made any sense anyway... hours and joules and dollars spent on trying to achieve the inane.. the self importance of a cause that has already run its course and should be put to rest.. the constant reminders of keeping the dream alive.. the meaningless utter insanity of trying.. the certain knowledge of irrevocable destruction of an ideal which has lost its context.. the futility of trying to revive the jounrey.. ignoring the fact that it has reached its rightful destination.. the meandering arguments and the circular logic.. the guilt of important things ignored.. of people and ideas left by the wayside.. the distant cries of some vague feeling that calls out.. the plan.. the plot.. the course that was to be.. all left behind.. successfully pushed to a deep dark recess of the devious device that is the mind.. priorities that went misplaced.. the valiant and entirely useless attempts at having it all.. at doing justice to all of it.. the sheer misery at discovering the failure.. the calm acceptance and resignation that this too will come to an end.. the eminently predictable end that marked the beginning of the folly.. the endless thoughts and nonsense.. the stupid bitching about all of this for the world to see..
If you can make sense of all this.. you, like me.. need help!!
If you can make sense of all this.. you, like me.. need help!!
Monday, September 26, 2005
ha - people actually asked me to blog!! I feel so appreciated.. so here i am at the ass end of a long day.. when the new day is about to peer around the corner.. yeah at 330 am.. here i blog!!
Seriously, I cant explain whay I haven't blogged - I could say its because I've been having a fabulous time being the blockhead BUT that would be a lie ( i STILL dont enjoy walking around knocking doors and attending assorted hall meetings and having to listen to some assfaces giving me advice - if you wonder who - come ask me).. I could say I've been busy studying BUT that would be an exaggeration (IP assignment is done and IT1 and 2 are in the next 2 weeks - yes work i have done, but not THAT much).. I could say I've been drinking a fair bit and talking cock a fair bit over the past few weeks BUT that would be the plain truth (and why would anyone want to read about all the boring shit I do - yesterday I drank with my colleagues.. today i drank with my hallmates.. and i havent gotten drunk after 5 different sessions - unique record.. but infinitely interesting? ich thinketh not!).. I could say I've been having a lot of fun with many hot chicks BUT that would be mere fantasy...
So you see there really is nothing to blog about.. my life is singularly uninteresting.. if you wanna read about hall stuff there are better bloggers who put up complete pictures and everything.. haha.. if you wanna read about law school.. my law classmates are much better informed and elnightening.. if you wanna read about me bitching about life in general.. err.. why would you right?
Ok - i have exhausted whatever patience and writing potential there is of writing about nothing.. and the damn figures at the bottom right corner of my screen read 03:38.. remarkable.. you see now how time passes.. i typed about how there was nothing to type about.. and it took 8 minutes to do that.. 8 minutes.. you could run 2 miles - if you were Roger Bannister (he the bloke who broke the 4 minute mile barrier is he not?) and what have i done.. blogged about nothing.. but this is the way my life is.. much ado about nothing.. and i have no clue what i am blogging about now.. and it read 03:41 - yeah it took me a minute to remember Bannister.. 4 minutes - what the hell man!!
Alright - time to sign off.. until next time.. see you later alligator.. in a while crocodile..
Seriously, I cant explain whay I haven't blogged - I could say its because I've been having a fabulous time being the blockhead BUT that would be a lie ( i STILL dont enjoy walking around knocking doors and attending assorted hall meetings and having to listen to some assfaces giving me advice - if you wonder who - come ask me).. I could say I've been busy studying BUT that would be an exaggeration (IP assignment is done and IT1 and 2 are in the next 2 weeks - yes work i have done, but not THAT much).. I could say I've been drinking a fair bit and talking cock a fair bit over the past few weeks BUT that would be the plain truth (and why would anyone want to read about all the boring shit I do - yesterday I drank with my colleagues.. today i drank with my hallmates.. and i havent gotten drunk after 5 different sessions - unique record.. but infinitely interesting? ich thinketh not!).. I could say I've been having a lot of fun with many hot chicks BUT that would be mere fantasy...
So you see there really is nothing to blog about.. my life is singularly uninteresting.. if you wanna read about hall stuff there are better bloggers who put up complete pictures and everything.. haha.. if you wanna read about law school.. my law classmates are much better informed and elnightening.. if you wanna read about me bitching about life in general.. err.. why would you right?
Ok - i have exhausted whatever patience and writing potential there is of writing about nothing.. and the damn figures at the bottom right corner of my screen read 03:38.. remarkable.. you see now how time passes.. i typed about how there was nothing to type about.. and it took 8 minutes to do that.. 8 minutes.. you could run 2 miles - if you were Roger Bannister (he the bloke who broke the 4 minute mile barrier is he not?) and what have i done.. blogged about nothing.. but this is the way my life is.. much ado about nothing.. and i have no clue what i am blogging about now.. and it read 03:41 - yeah it took me a minute to remember Bannister.. 4 minutes - what the hell man!!
Alright - time to sign off.. until next time.. see you later alligator.. in a while crocodile..
Monday, September 05, 2005
haha - found this gem among some of the old stuff.. bloody funny i reckon.. err - did i post this before? if it offends thy fine sentiments.. err.. you shouldn't be here..
Love Junkie
Oh girl you know you light my fire
with you under me how could i ever tire
Iam the type who burns a no smoking sign
but would give up everything to make u mine
i can show you what u will miss
if u let me start with a burning kiss
after that we can carry on play by ear
just take the pill you have nothing to fear
You're the lock and iam the key
baby iam just a love junkie
Theres so much stuff that i could teach
Like a dolphin i'll make you screech
hell i'll even make you scream
You'll wake up thinking it was a dream
A sweeter thing you will never taste
Than all this manhood thats going to waste
Dont you worry it will be a 2 way street
i'll eat you too - it will be my treat
You're the lock and iam the key
baby iam just a love junkie
Iam like Moses - with my staff i overcome you
you my red sea - part your legs let me thru
I may have said and done wrong
heck i may not even last long
but baby just let me mount
i'll make every single stroke count
and all this a bit weird it may sound
but i became this way after you i found
You're the lock and iam the key
baby iam just a love junkie
And just to temper all that testosterone.. here's a serious one.. err - have i posted this one before too? i dont know and i dont care..
In Between
Sometimes i think everything in life i have
Other times i think everything in life i lack
Truth is its something in between
Sometimes i think iam goddamn smart
other times i think iam a dumb fart
Truth is iam something in between
Sometimes i think money will answer all my needs
Other times i think all that matter are good deeds
Truth is its something in between
Sometimes i think at all costs i should be nice
Other times i think it isnt worth the price
Truth is its something in between
Sometimes i think this world is a lovely beautiful place
Other times i think everyone should get the f**k off my face
Truth is its something in between
Sometimes i think my best friend is a poser
Other times i think maybe he isnt that much a loser
Truth is its something in between
Sometimes i think every man is born to hate
Other times i think to each his fate
Truth is its something in between
Sometimes i think every girl is born to break some guy's heart
Other times i think every broken hearted guy played his part
Truth is its something in between
Sometimes i think life should always be the same
Other times i think that would be so damn lame
Truth is its something in between
Sometimes i think in everything i must have my way
Other times i think others should have a greater say
Truth is its somethign in between
Sometimes i think my rhymes are really cool
Other times i think iam a f***ing fool
Truth is its something in between
Sometimes i think u might read this and get what i mean
Other times i think you'll never understand what ive been
Truth is its something in between..........
Love Junkie
Oh girl you know you light my fire
with you under me how could i ever tire
Iam the type who burns a no smoking sign
but would give up everything to make u mine
i can show you what u will miss
if u let me start with a burning kiss
after that we can carry on play by ear
just take the pill you have nothing to fear
You're the lock and iam the key
baby iam just a love junkie
Theres so much stuff that i could teach
Like a dolphin i'll make you screech
hell i'll even make you scream
You'll wake up thinking it was a dream
A sweeter thing you will never taste
Than all this manhood thats going to waste
Dont you worry it will be a 2 way street
i'll eat you too - it will be my treat
You're the lock and iam the key
baby iam just a love junkie
Iam like Moses - with my staff i overcome you
you my red sea - part your legs let me thru
I may have said and done wrong
heck i may not even last long
but baby just let me mount
i'll make every single stroke count
and all this a bit weird it may sound
but i became this way after you i found
You're the lock and iam the key
baby iam just a love junkie
And just to temper all that testosterone.. here's a serious one.. err - have i posted this one before too? i dont know and i dont care..
In Between
Sometimes i think everything in life i have
Other times i think everything in life i lack
Truth is its something in between
Sometimes i think iam goddamn smart
other times i think iam a dumb fart
Truth is iam something in between
Sometimes i think money will answer all my needs
Other times i think all that matter are good deeds
Truth is its something in between
Sometimes i think at all costs i should be nice
Other times i think it isnt worth the price
Truth is its something in between
Sometimes i think this world is a lovely beautiful place
Other times i think everyone should get the f**k off my face
Truth is its something in between
Sometimes i think my best friend is a poser
Other times i think maybe he isnt that much a loser
Truth is its something in between
Sometimes i think every man is born to hate
Other times i think to each his fate
Truth is its something in between
Sometimes i think every girl is born to break some guy's heart
Other times i think every broken hearted guy played his part
Truth is its something in between
Sometimes i think life should always be the same
Other times i think that would be so damn lame
Truth is its something in between
Sometimes i think in everything i must have my way
Other times i think others should have a greater say
Truth is its somethign in between
Sometimes i think my rhymes are really cool
Other times i think iam a f***ing fool
Truth is its something in between
Sometimes i think u might read this and get what i mean
Other times i think you'll never understand what ive been
Truth is its something in between..........
Saturday, September 03, 2005
you know - i should blog more about things that happen - IBG/CBG s - how they went.. what i did during a lecture.. what time i took a crap.. etc etc.. but aiya boring right.. i dont even want to read it myself.. unless i feel very strongly about some shit that actually happens, i dont really want to write.. but looks like many people are taking a blogging hiatus now.. heh.. and looks like by next week i will be deep into whatever shit i've gotten myself into..
ok anyway.. aside from all the nonsense.. i am feeling my age!! I feel old and weary and tired and suddenly more mature.. dammit.. from running like an old fart in the road race to feeling like an old fart when i see the new block clowns Ian and Zhihao make complete asses of themselves (hehe - YES you 2 guys are dissgussting.. heh - but oh well, keep it the fuck up!!) I FEEL MY AGE!!!! and i aint even talking of 26 - i feel like i am 35!! Sweet Lord.. better start thinknig youthful and all real soon.. this is nicht gut for mental well-being..
hey wait.. i know the solution.. BEER!! more BEER!! its TIME!!
ok anyway.. aside from all the nonsense.. i am feeling my age!! I feel old and weary and tired and suddenly more mature.. dammit.. from running like an old fart in the road race to feeling like an old fart when i see the new block clowns Ian and Zhihao make complete asses of themselves (hehe - YES you 2 guys are dissgussting.. heh - but oh well, keep it the fuck up!!) I FEEL MY AGE!!!! and i aint even talking of 26 - i feel like i am 35!! Sweet Lord.. better start thinknig youthful and all real soon.. this is nicht gut for mental well-being..
hey wait.. i know the solution.. BEER!! more BEER!! its TIME!!
