alright alright.. i know i dont blog all that regularly, but does anyone these days? Wrote that damn public law essay on thursday night.. started typing at midnight and typed the night through.. felt like shit the whole of friday as i laboured on with hardly any sleep and more importantly i used my rapidly dwindling brain cells - was reading articles entire thursday and all you see.. while people researched 4 weeks, i researched for a day and a half and read 5 articles in all? fucking hell!!! So much for priorities.. acting my age iam indeed... ccb! knn! I shall strive not to let this shit happen again dammit.. iam raging.. against my own stupidity.. bloody excellent! i suck...

Anyway, all that aside.. there are more assignmenmts cumming up - no respite for a while I guess.. and been listening more and more to keane - crap!! whatever has become of me!! Probably related to the alcoholic indulgence.. saturday night.. dont anybody EVER make me drink beer after stuffing bananas again.. sweet mother of God - THAT is a fucking sin!! and like and old dawg that cant learn new tricks, wenta nd drank a bit on tuesday night as well.. slept at 5 am and ruined my wednesday.. and all these wasted days dominoed and helped me die on thursday and friday.. c'est la vie.. cause and fuckign effect!!!

ok - time to quit bitching.. but seriously, i should've known better.. there are some mistakes we always repeat, aint it? Dont suppose its only me.. Guess we all have our own trips.. some are perpetually lazy.. some perpetually fall in love.. shit like that.. one must learn dammit.. learn.. its ok to make mistakes.. repeating them though is stoopid!

Oh yeah, thanks to Yiwen and Chit Seng who helped me for the damn essay.. beer for you guys next time we drink.. heh..

Sweet Lord - the post hath become long with absolutely no content.. wtf!!

A thought just popped into my head.. faster than you can say "fuck" it popped in and went right away.. its weird, but was talking to my newfound friend Ben, who has strong views on values and shit.. he invariably takes the moral highground and though he does not preach or look down upon individuals who do not prescribe to his perception of what is good in life, his disdain for them - however slight, is barely concealed.. I, ofcourse just tell him that all he needs to do is get laid once and all will be clear.. he staunchly refuses to even consider the wisdom of my words.. but since iam so obviously not indulging in wild orgies and such, he does not look upon me with disfavour.. in other words, we get along.. so you see, he was alluding to porn with such vehement distaste, i had to step in, take a stand and defend it for a bit.. and that is when this thought popped in.. it came in faster than a stuntcock could cum.. (before you wonder what the hell iam talking about, check THIS out - its a link Shaocong passed to me - he is easily the weirdest asshole i've ever known, but thats cool..

So anyway, you see - on one hand, there is Ben who could quite possibly put an apostle to shame (no porn.. no wanking off.. is this guy for REAL??) and on the other we have Shaocong and Larry (not from NUS so fret not) - hedonists supreme! All of them are friends, but if push cums to shove, whose side would I, or for that matter - most of us be on? I dont know.. most of our morals are for exhibition and disappear in the privacy of our bedrooms.. how many of us can state confidently that we have stared temptation in the eye and turned her down? Lack of temptation is no testament to being moralistic and good and noble.. it is facing it and saying no that is tough.. even then, how many of us can repeatedly turn down temptation? How long does it take before we too succumb? I don't know.. Frankly, I know not what values I possess.. with each passing year, the line of distinction between good and bad seems to blur.. the more people I meet, the more the foundations of whatever convictions I possess crumble.. heh, weird eh..

But yeah, I still say yes to beer and iam NOT going to abstain.. I've thought enough about that one.. yeah Al.. values dont apply to alcohol do they ;)

Goddamn morning lecture.. probably gonna skip again.. someone wake me the fuck up.. yeah righhtt!

Warmed the bench quite successfully! Didnt feel as good as it was supposed to though - we didn't get outplayed - no sir.. we lost to a freak goal.. but hey, such is life.. full of freaky chances.. some go your way and some don't.. luck aint got nothing to do with it though - you make your own luck! Did i just contradict myself there? hell it is 5am and am beyond caring.. bio-cycle's gone to pieces.. its in the same state as, if not worse than Liverpool's champion league ambitions for the next season!! The buggers lost to Birmingham.. with a loss to Southampton still lingering in the fringes of my extremely short term ageing memory.. that is it for L'Pool.. expensive glorified misfits all of 'em.. dash it!

talk about rambling - that paragraph was just aimless meandering.. time to halt..

oh thought this one was funny..

these smiles that i fake
these promises that i break
these chances that i take
these blunders that i make
in the end, all for what sake?

these demons i've fought
these lessons i've been taught
these perversions i've thought
these rewards that i've sought
in the end, they amount to naught!

Remind me somebody never to wish for anything out loud again.. i wished to warm the bench right? oh my God! put my foot in it this time real bad.. well, long story short.. QY was injured and I ended up playing the entire EH game. Which would have been part of the original plan - only it was not. You see, the original plan was to whup KE and then relax against EH. Unfortunately we stumbled to a draw against KE and the EH game suddenly became very important. Anyway the EH team was strong and despite everything Venodh was saying, I think we did a decent job in holding them to a goalless draw. So today we face TH in the semis and you know what I wish right.. no nothing to do with bench warming.. ahem, I just hope my good friend QY recovers from his painful injury and can play and shine!! Mind you, ofcourse that would obviously mean i will be on the becnh but hey, i dont wish this.. i only wish he recovers.. yeah, noble intention purely!

Alright - all that shit aside, the studying still has not started.. it should.. there are 3 assignments cumming real soon.. and oh yeah... how could i forget.. Gong Xi Fa Cai folks! Happy year of the cock and all..

heh - I like the header picture too eh.. its time to accept destiny.. no longer holding back.. I will drink my beer when and where I want to as long as I can afford it - the picture is just a testament to our love affair ;)

That is it! it is 1515 on a saturday afternoon and I just woke up not too long ago.. It has dawned on me that this semester has followed the glorious path of last semester.. it is becoming a farce dammit! But these are early times however.. I will start studying from today.. yeah, time to study and study hard at that.. No more warcraft, and no more msn too - these are the greatest enemies right now!!

Off to the library in a bit.. hopefully.. heh.. if not shalt study in my room..

and yeah, no more alphabetical order or anything la.. heh.. so dumb!

IHGs will be over soon.. Qingyou damn well better recover from his injury.. i don't want to play KE or EH - i wanna warm the damn bench and that is all i will do!

Zipped through the Y post eh.. heh.. dont know la, just felt like that one.. hehe.. this one's already longer than the Y one - back to garrulous ways!!

Anyway, Vic - thanks for noticing my trembling hands and enlightening the whole world about it too.. aiyo, it was weird eh, i didn't really have a script or anything.. and the stupid paper i was trying to rest on my tiptoe (cause my knee was too short and the table was too tall) so i can look at my client and the paper at the same time.. and then my leg just started twitching.. could be thanks to the blasted hockey run the night before I guess.. but really i wasn't THAT nervous la!!! hehe - doesnt sound immensely believeable does it? crap!!

Been a busy but lazy semester so far.. been going out for dinners and such a bit more than normal.. but started skipping school again like crazy.. past 2 weeks i think the client interview and a tutorial is about all i attended.. damn!

Time to stop - sleepy now.. on a somber note, weird eh.. some people are just soo concerned about their friends and all.. maybe its a bit too concerned.. smothers them maybe? Besides, if you are worried your friends are becoming bad people what can you do? when times are good anyone can be strong and good.. only when times are bad we can actually see how inherently good and strong people are.. bad times reveal the truth in people? I guess so.. Quit worrying about friends and all eh.. concern is ok but dont carry it too far.. trust me, there are enough things in your own life to worry about.. why carry someone else's burdens too? You aint helping your friend by getting affected by it yourself.. then again, such is life..

Good Night.. I will wake up for lecture.. I sure will!!