Upset is me! Yeah, here i am in the dining hall and no iam not gonna complain about not being able to study.. fuck that.. but i have that buaya sitting opposite me and studying.. I do not look kindly on any specimen of the reptilia species in general and specifically not one as slimy is this.. for the unenlightened, there are but a few of them that plague the dining hall and its environs.. this particular sample is the one that frequents this area most.. and as time goes on, it does not get any likeable.. it never talks to the males i tell you.. grrh.. well, call it exam stress if you will.. it just pisses me off to look at the great slimy one at work.. he he

Anyway, moving onto more fun topics.. yeah, some of you know about the great triangular romance going on in our block right? Well, I got unwittingly sucked into it.. you see, there was this notorious blog which went and advertised to the whole wide world some inside invormation, which I thought only a few of us insiders knew.. and this information freely available on the world wide web was not exactly something nice.. it made all 3 sides of the triangle look bad.. lets call the 3 sides The Woman (yeah this story has 1 woman and 2 men.. duhhhhh), TIM (The Important Man) and TOM (The Other Man).

Added to this publicized information, I and one of my friends - saw something that was not nice.. no juicy details about that eh.. it basically amounted to nothing if you looked at it neutrally.. However, combined with the inside information me the great possessed, along with some (ahem, maybe a LOT) conjencture, it was potentially vitriolic.. it was a cross between Nitroglycerine and Trinitrotoluene (TNT in english).. and since TIM was someone I bothered about - I felt bad.. and after ineffectually supressing my overeager self for a few days, I revealed it to TIM.. now, mind you.. it was not a case of complaining or something.. it was more of a matter of protecting TIM from still being foolishly in love only to find out later he might be just hanging on.. so with such noble, pure intentions (stop sniggering at this point) - I genuinely thought it was something TIM should know.. but the bloody idiot that TIM was.. he went and promptly asked the Woman about it.. thing is, ofcourse he made it osund interrogative from MY view.. everyone knows i personally DONT GIVE A SHIT.. i mean, i was only trying to protect TIM right? it was meant to be information TIM considered and thought about and maybe he could take a step back from being in love and observe what was going on.. little did i think TIM will go and ask her about it.. tell her that I WANTED TO FIND OUT what was going on.. i mean.. i did not and do not care as long as TIM is ok.. right?

So anyway, long story short.. the Woman and TOM - i think - are not a little peeved at me.. not that I care.. because i made it abundantly clear to TIM that taken at face value the information was nothing.. it was the conjencture and imagination that made it bad.. and i told him so.. there was no bloody reason why he had to go and tell her that people like me were talking about it.. but subsequently, since the Woman and TOM treated it like I was telling other people.. now iam telling other people.. yeah ive told 3 others who incidentally are insiders and were privy to all prior information.. and i wonder how many otehrs will know now.. after reading this.. the offensive blog posts an interesting message now.. iam sure all 4 - Tim Tom Woman and Blogger (aside: i appreciated blogger's view on the whole thing.. tho he should not have posted it online.. he seemed to be quite sane about the whole thing)..

they are pissed.. hey, how about me? Iam royally pissed.. i didnt tell anyone.. spreading stories? hey people, you have NO idea how stories are spread.. go tell yan yan and you will know.. he he he.. just kidding.. right, so iam pissed and dirty linen here for all to see.. for those of you with no clue (incidentally i hope most of you have no clue).. so here iam saying my thing.. and hey, its all true.. there are OTHER witnesses after all.. and i dont regret a thing.. i dont sound bitter and pissed and unconvoluted i hope..

Oh yeah, exams will be over sooooon.. may the Force be with you all!!!

There is no such thing as a free lunch.. if you want something you have to give up something else..

The thought has been playing on my mind for a while.. No longer do I go through exam times with a single minded dedication like I used to.. ah the vagaries of an ageing brain..

Its been an interesting few days.. everything around me is turbulent.. at my age, I really think there are times when i just crave for dear old consistency... better the Devil you know than the Angel you don't.. ah, nothing ever is steady like it used to be.. is there a constant in this ever changing world of ours? Blessed indeed are those who can blindly look to religion as a constant - a source of comfort and hope and strength... and well no guys, porn does NOT count as a source of comfort ;)

Sancho Panza in Don Quixote...

"all I know is that solong as I am asleep I have neither fear nor hope, trouble nor glory;and good luck betide him that invented sleep, the cloak that coversover all a man's thoughts, the food that removes hunger, the drinkthat drives away thirst, the fire that warms the cold, the cold thattempers the heat, and, to wind up with, the universal coin wherewitheverything is bought, the weight and balance that makes the shepherdequal with the king and the fool with the wise man. Sleep, I haveheard say, has only one fault, that it is like death; for between asleeping man and a dead man there is very little difference."

Thats for all you people worrying abot sleeping too much during these terrible exam times.. i read it in sec 2 and its STILL good shit ;)

Right ho, here I go..

Blogging to me aint an addiction, unlike some of the others(yes thats YOU mel and YOU hailin) who prominently mention their efforts to keep away from it.. however, there are times when it gives me a certain amount of pleasure.. and ofcourse it gives me the artistic license to say whatever nonsense I want to, and grants me (however exaggerated or imaginary) an audience.. now, i normally don't wear my heart on my sleeve and write personal, emotional messages.. I mean, yeah well, I guess a certain amount of it shows from the stuff here, but people who write all about how devastated or how deliriously happy they are in their blogs.. hmm - doesnt appeal to me at all.. i think all writing must at least try a little bit to step away from feelings and attempt to amuse.. even a diary (which is what people treat their blogs as I guess)

Anyway, on a totally different topic, I realise kids these days are a LOT more messed up than 6-7 years ago.. Its like, EVERYONE has relationship problems.. and none of them are too straight forward.. its like, very little black and very little white and a HUGE patch of grey in between.. I dont get it.. I mean either you like someone, in which case you do all you can to keep it together.. or you dont like someone and you just fuck it.. but these days, people think and think and think.. they seem NEVEr to be sure.. they like a person today and 69 hours later they dont.. I mean what the FUCK's with that? I mean - hey dont get me wrong.. nothing personal - i aint involved in any of this.. but I hear soo much shit from so many people, its fucked up! You like someone, cool be with him/her.. you don't then dont be with him/her.. I mean you dont go and fuck around with anyone's feelings.. Similarly, if the person likes you, good.. if the person doesn't, you fuck off and pick up the pieces and maintain whatever dignity/pride you have left.. and if a person likes you, you say yes or no.. you dont play the guessing game and let them chase you all around.. but no, kids these days, they do all the thinking AFTER they start liking the person and sometimes AFTER they get attached.. I mean.. isnt nothing sacred anymore?

And i must direct most of this tirade against the chicks! They simply dont know what they want to do.. they simply DONT.. if they wanna play, hey then they should just tell the guys that.. but these players, they pretend to be good girls.. mess up these stupid guys who fall for them.. there is no such thing as a simple chick no more.. I mean chicks were never simple.. but they were never this messed up either.. thing is, they always know what they are getting into, but still emerge claiming to be victims.. whats with THAT?? I dont know whether to pity them.. or to blame them.. "hate to say I told you so"!!!

I dont know if its a 1997/2004 difference.. I dont know if its an NUS/NTU difference.. I dont know if its a i-was-18-and-didnt-know-this-shit-then-but-now-i-see-it-everywhere difference.. i simply dont know.. all i know is that when i was in NTU, i did not encounter this.. people did keep it simple then.. what happened now? damned if i know..

Alright - will stop there.. ha ha.. but seriously, none of that was personal.. just that way too many kids (kids i call friends) are messing themselves up.. i swear it aint 1 or 2 or 3 or even 5.. its a lot more.. i dont get it.. keep it simple eh folks.. easy does it!

Queerer line I haven't heard.. plenty i've heard from the likes of Oscar Wilde and Groucho Marx.. and even Shaocong.. but this one takes the cake.. yeah.. king of the brantub....

If you were asked to set the exam question for this course and you were told that the question must cover the whole course as opposed to being limited to one specific tradition, what would the question be? Begin your answer by stating the precise question as it would appear on the exam, then explain why, given what you have learned and studied, you think your exam question would be a good exam question for this course.