damn.. you know.. there is a post somewhere in may i think when i mentioned my reaction when i saw a hostage beheading.. they just did it again.. and this time being the pig-headed fuck that i was i watched the video on my comp.. with the sound turned on!!

i tell you - i almost threw up and cried.. i mean iam not KIDDING.. and 2 mins before that i was sad cause L'pool lost to ManU.. that is nothing.. insignificant.. I mean seriously guys.. what the fuck is wrong with people.. the guy is writhing and screaming and in the end just kind of wheezes.. i mean absolutely fucking horrible.. i really thought i would fucking cry man.. i mean it aint no joke.. its sick and sad and i mean words are inadequate.. what is wrong with people? We as a kind - I repeat - deserve to be fucking decimated.. this will haunt me for a while.. only hope i can sleep.. SICK MOTHERFUCKERS of the world..

killing only begets more killing right.. when will we EVER learn??? when will we EVER FUCKING LEARN????

iam feeling sick.. very very sick

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hey you - carry on doing the right thing.. aint easy but hang in there.. what is right is good for you.. dont waver this time... ;)

Condom breaks...............

yeah - apparently quality control for Durex is bad these days (outsourced to China probably ;P) or my man is just HUGE.. cause the first time he tried to use the condom the damn thing BROKE.. hahaha.. its just too funny.. and he only had one (yeah he didn't buy a pack of 3.. too shy.. he just acquired it from someone who had some) so he didn't try one on before the actual act.. hahaha.. cum on people.. dont you see how hilarious this is.. hehehe.. but yeah the man was left with blue balls again - poor sod ;)

Meanwhile, for the innately curious.. Mr.S 's name doesnt start with S.. ha ha.. iam not THAT stoopid right.. and trust me.. its not anyone you will even know.. let alone suspect.. and the chick isn't in hall anyway.. so well.. forget the guessing and just enjoy the adventures.. it was just too damn funny!! hehehe..

Been doing a lot of shit eh.. long unproductive weekend.. didn't do any work.. didn't drink.. didn't do much of anything.. well.. apart from talking to Lesley.. you see the cow broke up with her bf barry.. sad - 3 years of everything just went up in smoke.. she was/is sad but they broke up anyway cause they thought it was best.. now she is on a 2 day mc for depression.. and crying non stop.. so she came over on saturday.. stayed till sunday lunch - more tears, more pain, more tissue paper.. makes you wonder if these things are worth it..

But yeah, meanwhile this hall friend of mine - lets say Mr.S - he, for the first time in his life, got some action.. it was super funny.. hilarious.. he doesn't dare to tell anyone in hall.. looked for me for 2 days - and finally when we got a chance to talk.. bared his soul.. hahahaha.. happy fucker.. and then asked if he should use a condom if he went "all the way" and he didn't dare to go buy condoms himself.. hahaha.. i was tickled pink (pardon the pun) and well, gave him whatever advice i could with my ahem - limited experience..

So you see, the cycle goes on.. reminds me of the LIVE song... see below..

Did the stoopid video for Sing Yee as well.. was relieved to get it done.. man I HATE VIDEO EDITING.. actually i hate anything requiring artistic inclination i guess.. dammit.. creativity aint me..

Alright - this is the longest blog in a while eh.. cumming up soon will be more stuff - exciting i hope.. ;)

Lightning crashes a new mother cries
Her placenta falls to the floor
The angel opens her eyes
The confusion sets in
Before the doctor can even close the door...

Lightning crashes an old mother dies
Her intentions fall to the floor
The angel closes her eyes
The confusion that was hers
Belongs now to the baby down the hall..

- Live , Lightning Crashes from Throwing Copper

alright - i really am getting cranky i think.. easily irritable is me.. nothing is fun anymore.. mountains of work to do and the cock that is me aint doing shit.. this aint gonna be fun for a long time i think.. i can smell trouble.. its brewing... i can just feel it.. iam gonna upto my neck in shitcreek soon.. dont know how or when or where.. i just feel the damn thing.. that is just the way its gonna be.. i just know it...

yeah.. lif'es been eventful.. i guess.. if you could count unwittingly sparking off a flood of mass block emails.. and affecting the irritating yaoqian enough that she actually got emotionally upset? Still surprised by that one.. and yeah still abhor yaoqianism as much as ever..

Anyway, yeah - started trying to study.. finally.. but isn't working out very well - can't understand SHIT so far.. very slow too.. damn thing! The brains have long since decayed thanks to the inactivity.. and the alcohol!

Alright - this is gonna be a short one.. lot of shit has happened but nothing much to write about.. not much inclination to write no more eh..

Oh and I heard about the 12 nepalis the iraqi bastards executed.. it was horrible and I felt sick.. and then the russian tragedy.. unprecedented insanity.. children.. dammit it was mostly children... its apalling the depths humanity can stoop to... this is a big FUCK YOU to all those terrorists out there.. FUCK YOU and whatever else you hold dear you mother fuckers.... seriously.. may your souls go through the vilest torture - whatever that maybe - for eternity..

Look at the fear we're feeding..
Look at the hate we're breeding..
Look at the lives we're leading..
The way we've always done before..
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Look at the shoes you're filling..
Look at the blood we're spilling..
Look at the world we're killing..
The way we've always done before..

- Guns N Roses in Civil War

Its been a while..
a long while..

But hey, iam back.. now that Iam totally free, I shall try again to blog continously.. all these IBGs and shit.. phew..

Lets see - no more block comm.. the new block comm has taken over and good luck to them.. no more IBGs.. no more FWOC.. now its all just time to study..

Meanwhile.. life has been interesting.. many things have happened but nothing significant has changed at any personal level.. nothing to mention here.. but now that iam back.. i promise you more stuff.. watch this space..