Lamer than normal

These days - so often so strange
These days - so much they seem to change
These days - everything out of control
These days - can see the pieces but not the whole
These days - nothing worthwhile seems to last
These days - even love comes and goes too fast
These days - you take off to fly but hit the ground
These days - you crave for company when nooone's around
These days - you cant stand your own face
These days - you dont think the world's a good place
These days - you cant be sure just who are your friends
These days - you write crappy rhymes that dont make sense
These days - you cant write anything filled with hope
These days - with your own pessimism you cant cope
These days - time passes you by
These days - life doesnt seem worth a try
These days - everything seems to go out of hand
These days - you write so much you dont understand
These days - on your face is a perpetual frown
These days - when even stupid rhymes just get you down
These days - I should just stop trying to write
These days - Nothing I do will ever be right..

Just got back from Theodore's wedding.. Mein Gott. how times change.. met some good old CE friends.. everyone's working.. and everyone's fascinated by my Law story.. I mean its like Iam on freakshow central!! Also met all thos P&G colleagues that I hadn't in a long time.. Naomi surprisingly came to find me and asked to meet up.. surprise eh! She looks actually better than before (which isnt saying much still.. hehehe). Even Yanling and Queenie were there and were ver friendly.. its like the less time I spend with some people, the friendlier they get... familiarity indeed breeds contempt...

Anyway, about Theodore and Melissa.. hmm.. they were attached for 3 years.. broke up for about a year.. got back and less than a year after that they are married now.. a WOW! tale right?

But all this talk with all these old friends made me realise.. how much iam like them and how little iam like these kids (yes, sadly that, I think the only word, that actually suffices) that surround me everyday now.. makes me feel really funny.. its times like these I yearn for the old life.. yeah there are struggles - but the struggles more meaningful than the petty ones iam going through now.. and THAT reminds me.. lost my head and was trying to explain to C about that last night.. she argued against it.. but then again she is one of the kids.. she cant possibly understand.. I guess...


Alright.. time to stop.. gotta do a FWOC proposal.. promised C I wouold do it..

Such is Life

There was a comment asking about the abrupt disappearance of 'em rhymes.. Here we go with a couple of 'em.. well if they sound lame, whats new?? Go Look at the archives...

Man
look at the lives we kill
look at the blood we spill
while we go at each other with hate
New indiscriminate viruses originate
Will these destructive trends abate?
Or will they mankind exterminate?
Instead of uniting in the fight to survive
Unique methods to kill we contrive
Do we deserve extinction or are we just dumb
or maybe at long last the time has come!
We deserve to die..

Evil Within
Iam the one you loathe and fear
Iam the voice in your head you hear
Iam the one you think you own
Iam the one with ur sins I've grown
Iam the one you try not to heed
But you do with every misdeed
Ours is the perfect wedding
You do my every bidding
When you are lonely out there
When ever you stray Iam there
I have over your life enough clout
Iam the one you can't live without
Outside how peaceful you are
But inside you rages a war
Its easy enough for me to win
After all you are bound to sin
Iam where your darkest thoughts are kept
You as you are I accept
You possess your body and I your soul
Without me how can you ever be whole
You dont know what is at stake
You offer and with glee I take
Evil Iam say the ignorant few
Little do they know what I do
So my friend take good care...
And dont worry Iam always there!!

ha ha ha - alrighty - 2 really cock ones this time.. better ones next time i promise ;)

Ah - been a busy few days.. apart from rescuing whats left of the room.. FWOC has been a tad busy with numerous meetings and such..

Well - been an interesting time anyway - met Christian - back from the US - met some of the old colleagues.. met Lesley and Joanne and the gang.. J was surprisingly civil this time.. she volunteered and insisted on dropping me back - like how does that work? This is the same woman who brought the BF along to meet me and I was wondering why.. well well.. c'est la vie.. life is such.. full of inexplicable shit!

ah.. back in singapore
tiny cluttered hot hostel room
sucks
iam homesick

fuck anyone who thinks i shouldnt be..

Goddamn fever.. struck two days before i was to leave.. now my departure is delayed by a day.. hopefully only by a day.. cant remember when was the last time got fever this bad.. crap.. long live clean Indian water!

- 3 more days and then its S'pore...

- Yeah, had a $1 haircut.. thats how cheap it is here dammit! and already the weather is cooler by 5 degrees.. yeah its HOTT these days.. crap weather!

- piracy in CDs - commonplace.. now how about pirated BOOKS? Just discovered its going on here.. result - 3 books for about $6... amazing shit!! me is very happy.. next time around gonna raid these bookstalls!!

- Mom's sick.. damn!!

- Did you see all the fanfare about the Danish royal wedding? phew..

- Daily Mirror editor sacked.. interesting.. after princess Di's death, I guess here come the British tabloids again.. ha ha.. such assholes!

- Oh yeah, talkgn of which they also lost the case against Naomi Campbell.. yeah, if only this had happened before the moots.. he he.. bet the ones who did the privacy issue have a big ironic grin plastered on their faces..

Key Points in no particular order of priority

- L'pool assured of 4th position and get into the champ's league qualifying rounds for next year!!

- Indian elections throw a not so big surprise.. Sonia Gandhi to become PM - interesting dynastic politics carrying on

- Al Ghraib prisoners - around a 100 released..

- Gonna be back in s'pore in 5 days.. mixed feelings..

- Weather's cooled finally.. whoo hoo

- Had a flash of inspiration and gonna make a Europe trip in 2006 - maknig advanced plans/dreams already..

- Getting fatter...

Saw the video - the whole thing (or so I think) on local cable TV.. It was censored on BBC, CNN and CNA.. but here they showed the WHOLE THING.. and in case you wonder what wonderful video i am talkng about - me is referring to the decapitation of Nick Berg (or whatever his exact name is), the American CIVILIAN contractor brutally decapitated in front of a camera for the viewing pleasure of the western zionist zealots.. proudly brought to you courtesy of the freedom fighters of Allah, the brave warriors of Al Qaeda. May Glory and Peace be unto the Holy motherfucking Allah.. and since iam on that note - peace and glory also be unto the very well meaning and very humane Americans.. a toast to the noble thoughts inside their pietous heads as they stripped and abused iraqi prisoners.. lo behold, a new moral high for human rights and 3 cheers to the Geneva convention!!

Where is humanity heading? We deserve to be decimated.. Us becoming extinct might yet be the salvation of all life on this planet... may the Heavens and God (assuming Heaven and God are not just fabrications of fertile human imagination) residing there have mercy on us all!!!!!

Just realised.. never voted before in my life.. so much for suffrage!!

I will lose weigh this summer - go back to my 60+ kilo days.. my word of honour!!

Cant wait for Euro 2004!!

FWOC suddenly seems scary - I dont want one more obligation.. it better be fun!!

Think Iam gonna miss home this time!!

Scared a wee bit for my results!!

Cant wait to play soccer again - ankle is STILL wobbly - tried to run and hurt liek a bitch!!

Think Iam getting older and colder !!

Elections are coming real soon.. campaigning stops today.. yeah the plot gets thicker!!!

Meanwhile - only 10 days and i'll be back in S'pore - feels funny.. and saw a tamil movie after 7 years.. amazing eh.. but it was a good show.. they make good movies these days - not just the bilge that turns up on S'pore TV weekly.. ha ha

But yeah.. past few days nothing but glorious slacking.. we'll see if this carries on ;)

Halfway through my brief sojourn in the land I used to call home - but it feels alien now! Ha - how times change. Anyway, Daphne just emailed - guess her friend is here in Chennai for a whole MONTH!! The guy is gonna get bored and well, I dont know the place well enough these days - that is the problem - ha ha. Anyways, lots of things happening - could be interesting.. we'll see... watch this space

YEAH!!!

'Pool beats 'Boro 2 - 0. That means with all of 2 games left and a 3 point lead, champions league next year is theirs to throw away!!! Birmingham and N'castle.. and with the latter being the main competitor for the 4th place...

AND P'mouth is safe from relegation.. AND Leeds barring a mathematical miracle of astronomical proportions (pun intended) is relegated - news that brings to mind age old phrases like 'fall from grace' and 'how the mighty have fallen'.... You see - exactly 3 years ago Leeds were on the verge of entering the finals of the Champions' League.. sad but true.. but my heart bleeds not for them.. we'll see how they fare in the nationwide tour ;)

Just had to post this.. excellent shit!!!

back to mah blog!
oh well - been a busy few days.. funny - i dont think anyone's reading this - but i wanna write - makes it all the more interesting.. dont know why.. ha ha

One thing's for sure - marriage and this whole obligations to relatives thing - too much for me.. i dont ever wanna be married - i dont ever want relatives and all these irritating obligations!!

ah but iam not having that torrid a time at all - just the good old bitchiness surfacing and its always the bad shit that shines through.. pessimist is me..

Despite being busy got some time to email the prof (who aptly hasnt replied) and fool around with flash.. looks interesting and not that difficult.. but sure needs hell a lot of patience and creativity - how do people manage THAT? Been missing S'pore a wee bit.. weird eh.. home now is S'pore and not here.. funny too how parents are ageing and while some things sadly change, some things even more unfortunately do not.. meeting all sorts of all old family friends and relatives.. like iam the host for freak show central!! Reading PGWodehouse again - he is da best..

Funny feeling - i know iam gonna miss the parents, but somehow cannot imagine living with them full time again.. if and when that happens there will be a lot of getting used to.. more for them than for me i think.. this new found fondness for independence - or maybe its just growing up? This time I feel old.. like really old.. mature and responsible and all that shit.. aint looking at things the same like i used to.. i FEEEL old.. scary eh.. noone's asking me to.. think mom's wondering too - though she doesnt say anything different.. still force feeding me and all..

I dont want to feel the age folks but I am feeling it.. curse the workign life experience.. it is singularly responsible for all this change..

Alrighty whatever - when I get back to mah beer everythink should be hunkydory again!! I guess.. FWOC here i cum.. pun unintended..