Goddammit - wrote something and this beastly machine swallowed and spat it out somewhere - fucking computers!!! Iam gonna start programming again and fuck them up the way i used to.. that will put them in their place.... bloody hell!!

anyway this studying thing aint working.. elaborate plans and strong convictions are amounting to nothing.. what the heck.. sheesh.. i suck!!!

and yeah, was talking to J and she reminded me of how twisted we used to get sometimes.. ha ha.. weird shit..

did i post this somewhere already? well, if i did.. or if you dont have the stomach for it, refrain from reading eh.. but hey i didnt mean all of that.. it sounded funny!


screwed in the head

Bright and cheerful, the early light of dawn
A bird outside my window ushering in the morn
Sweet notes of melody it sings
I wanna tear its fucking wings

The day so beautiful, fresh and new
The grass glistening still with drops of dew
I take a walk to breath in the air
The morning inspires no worry no care
I chance upon a little fluffy ball of fur
Realise its a kitten, I watch her purr
She probably is almost as miserable as me
Cause as she stretches her feline limbs I see
She is malnourished and underfed
I wanna smash her fucking head

As I walk on I forget my miseries
See the girl of my fantasies
I inadvertently slow down my pace
My gaze riveted at her angelic face
She looks so pretty as she glides in her white gown
Wonder how she'll look in black leather strapped and bound
She gives a dazzling smile as we pass
All I wanna do is give it up her arse

What the fuck is wrong with Me??